A Little longer ch 4

16 March 1993

Dear diary,

Weird, I feel weird. Sora is too mysterious for me. You always make me happy and afraid at the same time. I’m afraid that this is only an illusion.

I’m confused, each day, Sora’s face seems getting pale. And if I asked him, he always makes excuses. He always says he was tired or a little ill. But I won’t push him. Because I love him and I’m afraid for losing him.
And my fear is being real when………

Flashback

“Operator, can I help you?” asked the operator to me.
“yes, I have to get up early tomorrow, so I want you to knock my door at 5 a.m.” I said.
“Yes, of course, madam.”
“Thank you, because I’m a heavy sleeper”
“Yes, madam. The knock will keep knocking until you answer it. And if you wish we can knock you again 10minute after you have answered, just in case you fall back to sleep”
“I think that would be a good idea. Thank you”
“you’re welcome, madam.”
And I fell asleep.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK
I woke up because of that knock; I’m surprised when I saw Sora.
“Ohayou, hime. (Good morning, princess) Wake up. Don’t be lazy” he smirks.
“why did you woke me up?”
“Because I’m taking you somewhere”

After I changed my clothes, he dragged me. 

We walk on the beach, watching the sunrise.
While we were walking, he stopped and……. guess what? He gave me a starfish.

I was confused but then he says, “Keep this. If you miss me, but I’m not there with you, just look at this starfish and always remember that I remain forever in your heart. I wish you keep living your life to the fullest.”
 

His face seems pale as a snow. Suddenly, I was over whelmed by fear. I’m afraid, I’m losing him. I don’t know why, but he kissed my forehead and leaved me. 

I saw a beautiful yet fearful silhouette of him as he walked away.

A Little longer ch 3

2 March 1993

    Dear diary,
    It’s been three week since I let met him. Warm feelings gather inside me, but fear engulfing me. Because I know that my time is getting shorter. This disease is killing me slowly. Diary, there was a time that he makes me feel like lucky girl in the whole world.

Flashback
    SCARED!
I’m scared!!! It must not happen! This feeling must go! I must leave this place!
“Could I check out now, please?” asked me to the receptionist.
“Certainly, madam. What is your room number, madam?”
“The name’s Hikaru, room 99.”
“Alright, madam. Could you just wait for a moment?”
“That’s fine”
“Thank you for your wait madam. And thank you for staying with us. We hope you’ll come and stay with us again”
After check out, I ran straight to a park. For the first time, after I met him, I cried. Regretting my fate. But, suddenly someone hugged me from behind. I turned my head. It was Sora, the one I have been avoiding.
“Why do you leave? Why you leave me alone?”
“I must! You know about my condition because of this, it’s impossible for me to stay by your side.”
“Why is it? I accepted you for who you are! I don’t care about your HIV! I care about you!”
I was shocked to hear that. I’m trying to understand it.
God, may I wish, to stay by his side forever?
I gave up. He took my hand and put a straw on my finger like a ring.
“This ‘ring’ is my oath that I will always stay in your heart.”
On that moment, I feel like I’m the lucky girl in the world.
End of Flashback.